last week i was feeling horrible about the job hunt. and my own self-worth. something about not getting a callback from anywhere that i'd applied in the past month - including all the places that pay minimum wage and give you 4 hours a week - that flat out sucks.
i've struggled with a "career path" since the day i graduated from college. unfortunately as time goes on, the struggle just seems to get worse. call it indecision or call it self-sabotage - i don't know what i want. film production was a lot of fun, but should i have gone to university for something academic instead? should i go back to school? what would i take? i legitimately miss writing essays and having assignments that challenge me, but i also need to be creative as much as i need to breathe and sleep.
in desperation, as i panic whenever unemployed, i applied to be a receptionist at a hair salon. not that there is anything wrong with hair salons, there is just something wrong with me at a hair salon. so yes, last week i washed the hair of about 12 complete strangers. yikes.
thankfully i got a call on friday that a bookstore that interviewed me wants me to start on the 11th. so i can quit the salon, hopefully before i have to touch another scalp.
as for photography, which i do love and think is my career of choice (usually) - i have a couple plans for some shoots with the few people i have met here, and have been able to get an unpaid assisting gig with a pro still life photographer here.
yesterday we did a shoot for a new magazine - 4 shots - including the cover. it was a really interesting experience. to work with a professional photographer, food stylist, prop stylist and magazine editor was a treat. lol although funny to think about what it must have looked like to see 7 people fuss over a slice of lemon pie for hours. the issue hits newsstandsjuly 15th, i promise you the recipes in it are extremely tasty ;)
and so, this weekend i can finally relax, give my ink cartridge a rest and not prep any more resumes. i am still hope hope hoping for one that i just applied for to call me back though. we shall see!
photo post of the day - this is agnes. i met her just before leaving toronto, and we did manage to squeeze in a quick photoshoot. this one is my fave.
